Shopping looks very very VERY tempting to me right now.

Whenever I'm sad, I usually do a retail theapy. But this time round, I know retail therapy ain't going to help me feel better and I can't spend money anymore. 

I got to think about the laptop that I wanna get next week. If I buy it, then my whole bank account will be emptied!   Should I get it next week? I kinda seriously need a new laptop already.

What should I do?

I want to be my old self again.One that is strong and do not cry so easily. I lost all the confidence I once possessed. I can be feeling sad almost the whole time now. I feel that I'm a burden to everyone around me. Even when I've got something troubling me, I don't even mention it to anyone.

I want people around me to be happy. I know that some people, after reading this sentence, will think, "Wah, she thinks she's such a noble person?"

But truthfully, I want poeple around me to be happy. I want to be cheerful also. I remembered blogging that my dominant life principle is happiness. Who doesn't want to smile? I'd love to. But now, it's gettin' harder. I feel strained. How I wish I could have a day that I can spend stress-free and relax at a beach or resort. Sentosa, maybe? Or Wild Wild Wet sounds good too. I haven't been there before.

When can I enjoy myself? During my 2 week holiday in December? Do I spend time alone at home? Or will anyone accompany me and try to cheer me up?